Monday, October 27, 2008

someone to lean on


everybody knows my situation... lahat sila curious bout Angelo!! baket daw ba ganun nalang ako ka-affected sa kanya... haaay... natural lang naman siguro yun nuh! mahal ko sya eh! pero of all people na pwedeng makaintindi at dumamay saken yun pang isang taong di ko inexpect na makakasundo ko...

im talking about steward!! i cant remember the exact date when i first saw him pero isa lang ang tanda ko... i was caught by his colored hair!! kabogero kasi.. di ko maintindihan kung animei look or style dancer lang talaga... well, napataas lang kilay ko sa kanya.. anyways, akala ko before isa lang sya sa mga ordinary neighbor ng bestfriend kong si Lalaine.. pero later on, i found out na bestfriend pala sya ng kuya ni lalaine.. nagkakilala na din kame that time.. at first medyo aloof kasi nga di ko feel hairstyle nya.. heheh.. (anung konek?!) pero time came na naging ok din kame sa isat-isa.. we became friends!! and syemprenalaman nya din yung hang ups ko bout angelo.. actually, wala akong balak i-share sa kanya yun kaya lang nadiscover nya yun kay lalaine, nacurious sya so he asked me bout that.. ewan ko bah, pero for whatever reason i just find myself sharing my heartaches to him... and i can say na because of that gumaan ang loob ko sa kanya! until we became more closer than before...

lage kame nagkikita kasi magakapatid ang bestfriends namin.. meaning to say pareho lang kame ng favorite tambayan! parehong napamahal samen ang "Sarmiento Family" kasi were always there and it seemed like it was our second family... iba kasi yung feeling pag andun kah.. lahat kapamilya kaya at home na at home kah...

then i never thought na out of no where im gonna meet Steward.. bigla nalang syang nag-exist sa life ko and tried his best to help me to move on.. and i appreciate it a lot... pero honestly, medyo scared ako sa pagiging close namin... baka kasi ma-fall ang isa samen and i dont want that to happen coz i cannot stand that... im still in pain and i dont want someone to break my heart again...

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